Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Visiting Schedule On Rikers



I was always a lonely boy ... nothing has really changed in that ... I'm still alone after all this time.


grew up among books at home and imagination. Mom and Dad isolated from my world ... My brother ... great all giants, seen from the floor ... I liked walking on the floor was cool, was a map ...




I began to be sociable too big ... I lived not so much a teenager.


But the friends are gone ... and is a vacuum, and again to meet as usual ...


pastimes, few ... look, listen, imagine ...


Only think I can be alone forever terrifies me ... there are things I do not like sharing ... and things I want to share and can not be.


like walking ... I've always walked alone ... sometimes in the evenings, to balance the railroad tracks ... sit on a stool in an empty street ... run counter to meet with the lights of the cars.


share many things I do not know ...


spoke to myself, no one here ...


me scared to be alone long.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Loving Phrases In Samoan

Soledad

carefully observe things around me ...
ugliness and beauty ...
mist in the eyes, the fire of madness ...

seems not enough ... seems not enough this vertigo of my existence. I, from the beginning, speechless for a while. Save the silence in my heart.

Save my rage, I accepted the baptism ... bend my desire ... and accepted the gospel.

I ascetic ... stoic in my pleasures.
I did not drink wine ever ... I was gentle ... wait time ... I locked my jaw ...

But then came the dizziness ...

could not stand it anymore ...

could not pretend the break ...

loved too early ...

broke my dreams, to break me down ...

but I
betrayed ...

The nation betrayed me, betrayed me family, morality betrayed me, betrayed me ... church

I was looking forward to the truth ...

I wanted the truth ...

I want the truth ...

but the truth is too ...

And now I'm alone ... with my anger, my heavy heart ... I'll burn my exclusion.

untie the hurricane of my imagination ...

I AM THE PROPHET OF THIS GENERATION OF UNEMPLOYED ...

Damian Mictlantecuhtli.